Thursday, March 23, 2006 { 3/23/2006 08:47:00 PM }

I AM SO USELESS!! i dunno why am i here... am i here jus to break things up? spoil things? i am not even changing to wad i am suppose to be... today can be a fun day but things jus came up.. afternoon cried... now crying... all i know is jus to cry... wad the f.... i hv nth to say...

today mum gave me $20 for two days... i haven seen her since mon... i really miss her... why mus she treat me so nice all of the sudden? why? i rather die.. i dun wan to lose anybody at the moment... i cant take it... wad am i for? i really miss the old days i always go out w her, tok to her, she nags at me..... where r they now???

today was a so call good day... PE was ok.. i complete 8 rounds non stop... haha so proud of myself.. i got like gold i guess hahax... :D ms tiru was funny today... ms wong was abit disappointed w me... she tok to me after class n wanted to call mum but i told her not to... i dun wan mum to worry.. she is alr worryin for fatty i dun wan to add burden for her... wad am i doin? feel like i am so useless... cant do anythin right now... went to library... found out somethin abt mum tt my aunt n jie was trying not to let us noe... i dunno was is goin to happen...

i really hv to thx veronica, jer n the rest who r helpin me pray n stuff... but i really dunno wad to do... someone pls tell me... i wan honest ( really honest ans.. i need someone to tell straight to me wad i am doin.. i dun wan ans tt r tryin to cheer me up.. who will tell me? do i hv to find out myself? man i am so confuse now... haix )

met jer, fa, yf at macs while waitin for shawn ( dels n veron fren )... suppose to go n study together but everybody jus couldn make it so didn turn out well... eat lunch w veron, maple, dels , ayu and farah... then after ayu n farah went home.. scared for ayu cox she went home late... then walk to interchange n send dels off to taxi we met shawn hahax... then nth we went off.. haha he is not tt awful as wad dels n veron describe la hahax.. went to suntec w veron after tt.... got bothered by some bastard when we tot was our fren hahax,.. blur.. hahax met abby at the display of pic n stuff... then went to eat ben n jerry's then went to food court to eat our dinner... hahax.. then went to take train.. send abby home then go home.. said somethin tt wasn pleasant for her to hear n noe abt...

I MAKE EVERYBODY ANGRY... WAD THE FU*K AM I DOIN... I AM USELESS.... SHIT... I AM SO SO SO SORRY GUYS... vvv


hey sorry jer, abby and tons... i really apologise wad i hv done.. mummy i noe wad happen to u pls stop askin me wad happen tou... i am crying like hell today in skl... almost every period after recess i was crying... man... jena i dunno who yr tokin abt tt is bitchin abt u.. but i promise i nv even bitch abt u... i swear to god i nv.. pls dun think i did... i didn... why is tis all happenin??? man... any miracle comin??? love u all still... will mummy be fine? will i? will ........ ? how? i am confuse... my skl work? wad is happenin to me.... haix..